31 July 2011
Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. Syukran Ya Rabb.
I was bestowed the chance to set foot upon the number 29. What could be more blissful than that? And to darling friends of mine; who planned the 'unsuccessful' surprise dinner...from the very bottom of my heart, I thank you guys! Makaseh dong sanggup curi masa to celebrate. Also to friends who text-ed, call-ed & posted wishes on my mukabuku wall. Thank you for making my day extra cheery!
Had dinner at Nasi Padang Ibu, Jesselton Point.
Mel was assigned to bring the cake but alas...their plan went kaboom because brilliant Miss Err decided to fetch Mel & car-pooling to JPoint. Boo hoo me. No?
Part of my backbones on my day. Perfect companions, perfect ambiance = perfecto moment!
That was Jess' hand trying to stonewall the wind.
After dinner, off the ladies crashed Amp Square at Suria Sabah.
My PowerPuff Ladies. The senior members since 2000.
It's been way too long since I last sang my heart out loud! I indeed had a blast that night. And I would never trade those moments for anything in this world.
I reached home nearly 3am. Something I haven't done for quite a while, too. And I lose my voice the day after. Hasil teriakan padu excited nyanyi lagu Mengapa...did we really sing or we're literally just yelling & shouting to the utmost, ladies? Juga hasil excited geletis geli2 ketiak bila si Ariel suddenly appeared on the screen. Hilang akal, mati jiwa kejap di situ.
Anyway, someone's hen's nite is approaching real soon. Before her big day, a bridal shower shall be thrown. It's a tradition Laura mastermind-ed & exhorted by the council members. We first showered Unang in 2009.
Taken during Unang's bridal shower somewhere in Warisan Sq. Unang was the one without the mask.
Oh damn. How time flies! I miss moments like that so very much! Never mind though because shower or no shower, there's always time for catching up regardless how cruel life could be upon us most of the times.
We will always be the best of friends. Till the end of time. Amin.
p/s To Laura & Mel, kombawa for the night. Though I know Laura is quite bad when it comes to dates! Still, that doesn't stop u ladies from planning. A plan that I accidentally crushed. Oppsie!
28 July 2011
Entri ini patut aku publish semalam. Tapi kerana api amarah sedang memuncak, berpercikan di segenap pelusuk hati...aku tangguh niat itu. Aku kata pada hati, sabarlah. Bawa istighfar; ingat Allah. Tiada guna caci maki dimuntahkan kerana yang terjadi sudah terjadi. Setiap perbuatan jahat pasti akan mendapat balasan setimpal dari Nya selagi tiada ia taubat.
Aku tidak puas hati dengan hukuman yang dijatuhkan namun siapalah aku untuk mempertikai undang2 itu. Biarlah, kalau yang punya kuasa sudah tetapkan itulah yang setimpal.
Cuma aku sedih mengenang nasib ibu & 2 ekor anak kucing yang tidak berdosa itu. Panggil lah aku terlebih beremosi; aku tidak kisah. Cacilah; katalah apa sahaja. Perasaan ini tidak akan terhapus dari jiwa. Tergamak manusia yang Allah kurniakan akal...yang jauh sempurna dari haiwan...berkelakuan seperti itu. Mungkin tidak keterlaluan jika aku melabel si penyeksa itu punya akal berpiawaikan kelas binatang! Apa tiada belas mendengar bunyi tangisan si kecil itu...apa tiada terdetik rasa kasihan melihat si kecil itu tergolek tiada daya untuk melawan balik.
Kalau betul mahu tunjuk kuat, sila lah berentap dengan yang selayaknya. Kenapa tidak kau pukul sang harimau...sepak terajang sang singa...dan pijak sang gajah? Itu baru lawan yang sesuai. Itu baru ku anggap adil. Berentap lah kau hingga tetesan darah terakhir pun, tiada siapa akan peduli. Tiada siapa akan mahu mengheret kau di muka pengadilan.
Video dari cctv yang ditayangkan di tv semalam mencarik hati aku. Berdarah!! Adegan kejam itu berulang2 tayang di birai mata. Ya Allah, tenangkan hatiku. Bersihkan mindaku. Elakkan lidahku dari berkata yang ndak2.
Sampai saat ini, sungguh jantungku ranap. Bernanah. Darah mengalir kerana luka masih belum kering.
27 July 2011
Hari ini hati gumbira luar biasa.
Masih dikurnia Dia perasaan ini walau sesekali aku ragu.
Apa benar yang sedang bergelora dalam jiwa.
Roh & nafas masih diizin menghuni tubuh.
Walau seringkali si tuan badan alpa sama Yang Memberi.
Jika diberi Dia peluang, aku bakal bertemu Ramadhan.
Bulan penuh syahdu. Dikepalai dengan beribadat.
Bulan bebas si Laknat.
Syukur Ya Rabb.
Aku lahir sebagai seorang Islam.
Yang mengaku setulus jiwa, aku hamba Mu.
26 July 2011
Alhamdulillah. Kelmarin; aku berjaya harungi perang berdepan diri sendiri. Berjaya menapis godaan nafsu. Aku berusaha mengelak dari zina mulut, telinga & mata. Juga berusaha keras memelihara hati. Insya Allah, asal niat itu baik tentu Dia akan tunjukkan arah. As for yesterday, aku berharap perjuangan itu mampu hasilkan buah manis untuk jadi bekalan di 'sana'. Tetapi itu sudah pasti perlu diiringi Izin-Nya.
Aku kurangkan perkataan yang dituturkan; bimbang kalau asyik berborak fitnah & umpat akan terlahir. Aku diam memilih melayan diri semata mengelak mendengar perkara yang bukan2. Aku bagi amaran keras sama hati, hentikan segala rasa yang binasa. Aku cuba hindari mata dari menatap yang bole jerumuskan aku ke lembah zina. Aku manusia biasa, dosa itu sudah sebati dengan jiwa. Dosa itu boleh diibarat vitamin mujarab di kala leka.
Kerana itu Allah perintah hamba-Nya berdoa. Tunduk & memohon seikhlas mungkin. Aku tidak tahu tingkat mana Dia letakkan perjuangan aku kelmarin; namun aku yakin Dia Maha Tahu segalanya. Dia yang Maha Adil; pasti setiap satu akan dikurnia balasan. Paling tidak dijadikan kifarah atas dosa yang menggunung tinggi.
Syukur hari ini juga aku menang berjuang. Tengah hari tadi, bisikan si Laknat begitu kuat mengigit sanubari. Entah apa yang disaran aku perbuat. Mujur sempat aku sedar tujuan aku isytihar perang 6 hari ini. Yang aku kesal, aku terlanjur melontar ayat yang sia2. Kerana asyik dengan gembira; lena diselimut suka; aku biar diri memesong arah. Wahai sang mulut, lancang kau muntahkan perkataan. Lupakah kau, sedari fajar anggota yang lain sudah berpesan...jaga kelakuan; jangan celupar; jangan lupa 'diri'.
Esok aku ke medan perang lagi. Aku berdoa agar punya kekuatan menepis segala yang datang menghalang. Insya Allah, Dia ada jadi Pelindung & Penolong.
Yang fakta kini, perjuangan ini BELUM SETTLE. Harus selesaikan segera cepat. Sudah lama jadi penangguh; sudah terlalu lekat dengan sifat suka berdalih suka beralasan. Cepat dong Bie...ndak kan tunggu masa dijemput baru sibuk itu & ini.
25 July 2011
Hari ini bermula perjuangan aku. Next week there's gonna be another battle will I have to overcome. Hopefully I will be able to get through this current war I am in. 6 more days to go! Aja! Aja hwaiting!!
Anyways, itu ejaan sebenar ya readers sekalian. Kamsahapnida to Lisa for tutoring. She went to Korea *sponsored by the country mind you* & learned their language for over a year; harus kena share ilmu sama gue! I fall in love with her whenever I hear she speaks Korean. Especially when she chatted with her fellow Korean friends over the phone. I wanted to learn the language ever since Ezza showered me with their dramas & movies. Super awesomeness masterpieces!
Ok lari tajuk. Dari perang boleh jak directed to Korean thingy. Hampas.
Can't wait for this evening as well. I wish I'll have enough energy to run. Insya Allah.
24 July 2011
Sunday is my rest day from visiting the jogging track. Alhamdulillah I've been pretty strict with myself...no more procrastination when it comes to turning my 'kill the fats' mission into reality. Last Thursday, due to severe headache I managed to complete only 2km. It was indeed painful & throbbing. Toxin was released when I started exercising the day before. It was somehow predictable considering I haven't run for years.
Came Friday, leader of all day. The day filled with barakah! Syukur, I was back to the pinkest health. Managed to walk & run 6km. If it wasn't because of the drizzle, I think I would have ran farther. Ok now why shall I blame the light rain? Itukan hikmah.
I am so proud of myself now. Last Weds, I could barely run even when I forced myself. 30 seconds of running seem too much for me. Hence I opted to only walk briskly in the park. Last Fri, I suddenly became more energetic. At first, I tried walking for few minutes. And then I ran. I measured the distance by counting the lamp post along the track. Started running between the gaps of 3 lamp posts. Gradually I increased the number. And 7 was the farthest distant I could run that day. Alhamdulillah. 7 posts to mark my walking...followed by 7 for running...and henceforth. I wish; soon, I could decrease the time of walking & exchange it with running. Insya Allah.
Feeling much better nowadays. Lighter & healthier. I eat less ever since I started running. I don't know why but all of a sudden Miss Tummy refuses too much food consumption. Water & juice is fine but not food. Aku sangat cepat kenyang sekarang. Gila poyo gaban! But because that's the reason why I forced the system to work more, I think I am on the way achieving my goal. Yes? Wanted so very bad to get rid of all the stubborn & excessive fats. Also to convert them into more useful energy.
And yeah, juga mahu muat segala baju-bajan that I no longer could fit in. Including pants & jeans. Sekian.
p/s: Can't wait for tomorrow's session. Internet connection at home has been testing my toleration to the utmost these past few days; hence the outdated story. Boo hoo!
21 July 2011
And so yesterday I victoriously destroyed my super lazy wall & dragged my big fat ass to the jogging track. Finally!!! After months of procrastinating & delaying. Or was it years?
Many thanks to beloved girlfriends; Danne & Ell for the motivation. For inspiring. U ladies rock! For now, I may not be able to do the 10km marathon like Danne did or climb up Mount. Kinabalu twice in a year like Ell did. But rest assured ladies...I'm on my way to possessing that high spirits like urs. Aja-aja fighting!
Because I'd hung my track shoes for 3 very long years already...I decided to just walk as to avoid from any muscle cramps. I opted not to jog although I did run in the beginning just to warm up the body. After few metres of slow pace running I slowed down...and continue walking. After the first 2km round, I was surprise with myself when the eagerness to walk more arose. I was sweating madly I could feel the swift sweat flowing down at my back.
Amazingly, I wasn't exhausted at all. Nor I gasped. Because the moment I stepped my foot on the track, I was bloody worried I will collapse since I haven't been exercising for too long. Alhamdulillah, I completed 3 rounds that was equivalent to 6km; in 1 hour & 15 minutes. Thanks to the Sports Tracker apps I installed in Mr. Sam beforehand. I was able to count & monitor my walking-cum-jogging activities.
I reached home just before dusk. Everything seemed alright at first. But came midnight, I started to feel the sore at my thighs & calves. The exercise finally cracked my fat storage. There was a slight problem with my breathing as well...chest felt a bit tight up until this moment. Pfftt serve me right! I enjoyed culling fat but too lazy to get rid of the excess.
Last year, I rest the system from consuming rice for nearly a year. No exercise involved. Result was awesome. I could fit my size 26 jeans which I'd kept idle in the closet for years. But I have to honest here, albeit being able to fit my old clothes & pants my stamina is still disappointing. It remains at the lowest level. Climbing the staircase to my 2nd floor apartment is extremely tormenting. I forever feel like lacking the energy. O2 to breath is scarce.
Hence now, I seriously want to make it balance. I've been eating like a pig since Jan. Everyone could see the consequences of it. Bulging tummy. 'Elephant-trunk' arms. And my thighs are twice mother's. She mocks about my shape every now & then. Not to forget my always in exhaustion being. I never paid any attention to her but not until last week where I hardly fit in my size 29 jeans. Fact that I bought it few months back reaaaaaaaaaaaly hit me hard. And that's when I told myself...enough is enough! I gotta start exercising before it's too late. Regret is never the phase I look forward to be at.
Berjuang biar hingga tetesan darah terakhir. Janganlah poyo masa ni jak. Hampas harus jadinya kalau stop tengah jalan.
20 July 2011
Wow weeeee...someone's back to work already. Frankly speaking, I couldn't be of more happier
and geletis-ier. Upon receiving the precious text message this morning, smile has been widely drawn on my face. Oh yeah, I'm smiling ear to ear. And currently am sailing in the pinkest mood. Lurve my Wednesday!
Erk, kenapakah perlu gumbira sebegini rupa? Bukan boleh cuci mata
sampai bersih mata hitam menatap wajah. Bior lerr, janji awok dapat dengar soghe pun jadi lerr. Haaa keluar bahasa Perak nan berterabur aku, ni semua penangan Ustaz Kazim lah.
And speaking of him remind me of his current state of health. Ustaz has been unwell ever since he underwent a surgery early this month. In his mukabuku, it's reported that he was discharged from the hospital few days after the surgery & has been resting at home since then. He has to cancel classes in order to recover. Last Sunday, he was admitted once again due to infection on his wound. He has high fever. Hasn't been able to sleep for 12 days. Subhanallah.
Semoga Ustaz cepat sembuh supaya dapat meneruskan perjuangan menegakkan kalimah-Nya. Insya Allah. Amin.
I am an avid fan of his lectures. I listen to his talks everyday without fail. Alhamdulillah. Syukran ya Rabb for Your Mercy; for giving me the opportunity to learn. While driving, instead of tuning into the radio I opted to insert my flash drive that contains his lectures. Thanks to Fuchy darling for the usb port installed in her. But don't get me wrong, I only chose to listen to him when I was alone in the car. Kalau ada orang lain dalam kereta, mau aku nanti di-cop trip alim pulak. Ahaks.
Before sailing to dreamland, I love putting on the earphones & tune in to youtube. Search any of his lectures online & listen to it until I fall asleep. And harus Mr. Sam ber-charge all night long. If it wasn't connected to the charger...it might goes out of batt & eventually died. Which means no buzzing to wake me up the next morning. Maka akan melepas SuPra...melambat bangun untuk ke kantor. Haru!
Anyway, vidclip below was the first of Ustaz's lecture that I listened to. And immediately caught my ears; melt my heart. Thanks to Ruby for tagging me in mukabuku. May Allah Grace be with u always darling.
Ever since this clip, I haven't stop from listening & downloading his lectures. Syukran Ustaz for sharing the knowledge & wisdom Allah bestowed upon u.
19 July 2011
Had a chat with my
not so beloved cousin soon after reaching home from work. She's the selenge version amongst the cousin sisters. In our every chat sessions...tons of issues/matters were covered. And for today session....
She forwarded me this link; Pusat Jagaan Kucing that truly break my heart! I cried upon seeing the pictures posted. And wept more when I read the whole post. The excuses given by the person in charge was so absurd & unprofessional. We're talking about living creature...EVEN if it's just cats!!! I wanted to swear so badly but I know that wouldn't change a thing nor will my words stop the cruelty because it has occurred. What happened in the past, stay in the past. What's more important now is to find a way to prevent it from occurring again.
I always pray to be given the opportunity by the Almighty so I could afford to build a house for stray cats out there. Although I know I would not be able to save them all yet at least I tried my best. I played my part. Ewah ewah!
For now, harus bersyukur. Allah SWT bagi peluang untuk jaga the 5 children at home. Itu amanah Dia that I voluntarily accept. Alhamdulillah, rezeki ndak pernah putus ever since I have them under my 'wings'. And yeah to friends who have befriended me for years; please BRUSH OFF old fact of the
super cute Ailurophobes Bibie already. Ahaks.
Soon after I finished reading the post, I searched for my children. Hugged & kissed them. And squeezed tightly. I know they will never read this but I'll say this over & over again without getting bored..."Kakak shayang kamu semua!! Shayang banyak!!"
The children is 1 of Allah greatest gift to me. I am blessed with their presence. I am a better human being because of them. I couldn't imagine my life without them in the future. Bisa jantung koyak beribu. Sedang baru hilang kejap aku mencari macam orang hilang laki. And sila tahu, the pain lebih parah dari break off sama chenta hati ok.
Chombee. It all started with his mother; Bulat who came to our house in Putatan & eventually make it her home. And Chombee was the one who stole my heart in the first place.
Chomel. Mother brought her to our new house to accompany Chombee.
And terhasil si Cheeloh The Survivor.
Sumbang mahram betul They initially had 4 children. Chichil went missing after few weeks he was born. Chumie joined him a year later. And Chubby died sometime in 2008 because of some viruses. Cheeloh got infected as well but alhamdulillah he survived till now.
Corridor was found at my previous workplace. I can't stand hearing her cried all day long I decided to bring her home. Sian terpisah sama si ibu kali.
And the youngest; Cafe. Found him at the cafe hence the name. The most playful among the children. Definitely my tail he is. When at home, he follows everywhere I go. Together with Cheeloh, they are my bedmates tegar.
Ok gotta pen off now. I've got piles of laundry to do...also dry clothes to fold. Wachaa!
p/s Kunun orang cakap penchenta kucing ni memang akan lambat naik pelamin. Ya ka? Sebab aku macam banyak kali jak naik pelamin sudah. Pelamin orang la tapi. Kau ada?
18 July 2011
I finally responded to the Nestle Bliss Yogurt Drink 14 days challenge!! I know I know, I forgot to
brag shout about it earlier. I drink 2 servings of the drink a day & it's been nearly a week now. Yup, 2 servings of 200g bottle a day. But being the super 'rakus' moi...I settled for 2 bottles of 700g instead. I literally doubled the challenge, NO? Ahaks!!
Oh man to my surprise did I feel any difference. Honestly, my digestive system has been serving quite well ever since I took on the challenge. It's of no shock because from what I've read in their web Nestle Bliss contains both Inulin (fibre) & Live Cultures. When both combined, Inulin helps to maintain good digestive system. Hence, one is always in the highest quality of health to take on the challenge. Darn it, I bloody miss talking Biology language. Poyos!
Had my last bottle yesterday evening because I forgot to restock! ugh ugh! And because of that t00, I missed my serving this morning. Went to the market on my way back from work...but alas, I saw only small bottles were on the shelf! And to top the devastation; there were only 5 MINI (200g) bottles left. Dang it! I grabbed all 5 bottles & walked half happily towards the counter. Apparently half satisfied with the purchase!
5 bottles equal to 1kg...and I definitely have to stock up again tomorrow. Because woot I've consumed all servings! I proudly emptied the last bottle just now. Teehee!
It consists of 7 super delicious flavours. And shall u ask which is my favourita...I'll say ALL of them. Yet, the Tropical & Mixed Fruit wins my taste buds most of the time. I extremely fall in love with its combination of smooth low fat milk & fruit juice. NOT to forget the good bacteria stimulated in our large intestines. Thanks to Inulin for the encouragement. Wachaa!
Gracias to Nestle for such brilliant product & challenge!
Ramadhan is approaching, I just hope 'sheepy things' vanish asap.
Mahu stop tanam CILI...seluruh kebun ini perlu dibakar. Sangat sukar kalau terlalu ada enjoyed makan cili yang sememang BUKAN untuk hidangannya. Namun siapa saya untuk menghalang. Kepada yang suka mencuri makan cili di sini, sila berhenti karakter perasan dipersalah. Kerana aku mahu berhenti dari perasan uniq. Capek dong.
Ya Allah, bersihkan hatiku dari segala kekotoran. Sinarkan ia dengan cahaya Mu.
Cahayakan ucapanku, penglihatanku, pendengaranku, pergerakanku dengan sinar taqwa. Amin ya Rabb.
16 July 2011
Bliss Saturday it was. Spent half the day at 1 Borneo. I decided to redeemed the burpday gift voucher from PCStore. Bought a pair of straight-cut jeans & a very elegant blue pumps. Elegant sangat. I love the colour; looks high-priced despite how much it cost. And the jeans? One very comfy wear. I came to realise that every time I went out for jeans hunting I always ended up buying one from this store. I could literally say that apart from L^vs I am also an avid user of this brand. Frankly speaking, it's not the brand that I look at the most but the comfortableness. For me one that puffed my confidence whenever I wear them is the one worth buying. As long as the price is reasonable. And most importantly; affordable.
I also bought few baking tools today. Part of my preparation for the coming Ramadhan. And Grunge+Rio wedding reception next September. I was being requested to make 500 pieces of mini cupcakes for the reception at Rio's side. Grunge has bought the wrappers. My job is to bake & pack. No complicated decoration; just a plain simple chocolate mini cuppies. So she said. But I was thinking of chocolate drizzling as toppings. We'll see how things go later.
Right now, I have to mainly put my mind focus on the task Laura has appointed me to complete. It's a task that need to be executed only after she's back from her Perth holiday trip. Too big a responsibility she has put on my shoulders; I'll need to ask for Mel's help then.
Went to watch Harry Potter for the 2nd time just now with Mel, Laura, Maya & Ailin. We settled for the 9pm 2D show. I've promised to watch it with Mel because we did the 1st part of HP7 together. Do not be surprise with this quaint character of mine already...I can bear watching movie(s) worth watching several times. If it's through the lappy, I enjoyed rewinding & pausing scenes I like for only God knows how many times.
Pastu terlalu gumbira sampai terkinja macam beruk dapat pisang. Same goes to reading book.
Lately, I've got tons of plans in my waiting list to be carried out. Phew poyo gila statement. Insya Allah, all in good times. Like friends always tell me; pelan2 kayuh.
15 July 2011
Tadi curi masa jumpa si Little Missy yang makin pintar.
Makin bubbly. Makin panjang rambut.
Juga jumpa orang yang mengandung 4 bulan.
Tummy si Preggo sudah membonjol bulat.
Last Mon buat check
it out up gender.
And doubtlessly aku bakal terima another nephew.
Ada kawan si Kich.
Adillah kerana Maya Linawa sudah ada Tia Kyla.
September ada wedding yang paling dinanti.
Insya Allah kalau umur panjang akan menikmati udara di highland.
Together with the rest of PPGs & Posers.
Sungguh hati ndak sabar.
Mahu berdandan separa cantik sebab ndak boleh overshadow radiance si peranten.
Dan aku decide untuk stop sifat perasan unique.
Mahu lapangkan dada.
Nyah kan debaran yang bukan2.
Padam; bakar & hapus semua. Hemo ka?
Pasni whatever pung kome talk to my hand je ler.
Sesi curhat bersama si Mommy ZaZa sebentar tadi.
Ok bukan curhat tapi more to sesi minta pendapat.
Macam lama kami ndak buat sesi gitu.
Dulu masa dia di Kolumpur, segala benda kami share.
Dia ini jenis yang bercakap lurus, tiada tahu erti traffic light.
Apa dia rasa aku perlu dengar & tahu, harus semua dia muntahkan.
Hati tercalar belakang kira janji aku faham apa dia cuba sampaikan.
Langsung ndak terkesan dengan calar & luka itu.
Kerana aku tahu niat si kawan.
Sesi itu terjadi lagi.
Seperti di masa lalu...dia masih berbisa.
Walau barisan ayat Marcell mematahkan tulang belulang aku.
Please, sila delete feeling kau itu ya.
Terima kasih teman atas masa tadi.
Perlu semua itu aku bakar.
Usah diambil pusing.
14 July 2011
Entry ni memang bakal buat orang muntah darah kot! Suka aku leii. Malam ni bulan mengambang, jadi sesi recite Y pun terpaksa dicutikan. Hence I took this opportunity to let the mind goes pink. Blame the hormone. I guess that's the reason of this sudden urge to do this super special entry. I don't know when will I be able to afford to fulfil my dreams. *refer pics below*
So berangan jak lah duluan...jadilah. Sila tahu, ini bukan main desire ok. Ndak mau 'lapar' harta dunia semata.
Elegant. If I were to have this...I'll ditto the swans.
This!!! My favourite. Dapat dapur gini...sah aku makin rajin masak.
BUT I'll change the refrigerator to this.
This oven too.
The stove as well.
Super comey toaster!
Wooooooot please listen...this mixer adalah idaman kalbu. Insya Allah will get my hands on this; one fine day. Cornell's RED mixer terpaksa diucap selamat tinggal.
Dapat super cosy couch begini...sangat seronok!
Dapat lagi sewing machine ni; makin rajin aku belajar menjahit. Excuse lagi! Sampai bila ndak lah kau belajar tu kan Bie selagi ndak terbeli.
This bathroom is as big as my current bedroom I guess. Tapi ok juga kalau tidur dalam tab tu kan. Like the wall paint to the core; blends with Fuchy very well. Aduh fening!
Ok get back to real life already...masa untuk berangan sudah tamat cik Err.
Pelik sungguh yang bernama aku.
Sudah tahu kenyataan itu.
Di hadapan neraca itu, buku di tangan kanan tidak wujud.
Semua telah habis dibayar di sini.
Lantas, apa jadah perlu kaget.
Apa jadah perlu risau.
Baru dicuit sedikit,
kau sudah terjungkit?
Ndak payah terpekik terlolong minta didengar.
Ndak perlu gelabah tiada pasal.
Itu kerja orang yang mahu benang basah berdiri tegak.
Sudah kau maklum wahai cik Err.
Hanya 3 yang akan menolong kau.
Jadi apa perlu kau tagih perhatian dari yang tidak layak?
And so it has finally come to an end. I watched the final series of the film just now. Good bye wizards, good bye Hogwarts, good everyone & everything associated to Harry Potter film series. Most of all, au revoir to the trio. Harry; Ron & Hermione.
10 years has it been since the first installation was released. They are all grown-ups already. God, I feel old. Hemo.
I cried during the end of the final part; certainly aware of the fact no series after Deathly Hollows will there be anymore. Hemo hemo. And oh, tears rolling upon seeing Dobby's vague image lying helplessly under a seat at Harry's imaginary King's Cross Station. Please know, I was devastated & sad when Dobby was murdered in the previous series.
I cried. Thank God NOT hysterically.
He is now a free elf. Dobby lies in a grave at Shell Cottage. Resting place Harry manually digs; without using his magical powers. Sob sob sob. Hemo lagi.
Surprise no more u shall be when I say I'm gonna do a movie marathon of Harry Potters in one of these days. Mother wants to watch the franchise together as she has never watched any of the previous series before. Although having the original discs at home. Woot!
And I can't wait for the Ghost Protocol to be executed by Mr. Cruise. Another impossible mission is gonna hit the cinema this December. Insya Allah.
12 July 2011
Ohoii hati luka. Bernanah.
Saat ini, rasa mau tikam tengkorak guna pemutar skru.
Ketuk kepala guna tukul.
Hmm sila kembali sedar Bie. Sudah kan episod drama melankolik kau itu.
Sambil menaip, muntah darah berbaldi2.
Alkisah, diri yang bijak terlajak ke depan ketika cuba mahu meletak si Fuchy. Cuma terlajak sedikit namun masya Allah kesan harus mengguris jiwa. Tidak mengapa, ini hanya ujian. Bukan boleh bawa si Fuchy masuk liang lahad nanti. Sila teruskan muhasabah untuk mengelak diri mengeluh yang bukan2, wahai empunya blog.
Sedang berfikir untuk menutup cela itu. Canangnya mahu ditampal sticker. Tapi belum pasti corak apa yang sesuai. Dalam otak ligat mahu meletak sang rerama...atau mungkin sang lelabah dengan sawangnya seperti yang aku lekat sebagai hiasan di dalam. Biarlah...nanti sahaja aku khabarkan sebaik semua sudah selesai. Insya Allah.
Anyway, on another different note. I was bing-ing the arrangement & design ideas for my bedroom when I found the picture below. Obviously, I searched for a pink theme. Like, duh!
Minus the pillars around the bed...I would really love to have this arrangement in my room. Ditto the accessories for I have my own to scatter around the room. Studying table near the window, I shall transform to a dressing table instead. And NO shoes are to enter the room.
Kerana anda tidak berdarah mat salleh Bie. Sekian. We'll see how things turn out to be later.
p/s Can't wait for my date with the Sorcerers @Hogwarts tomorrow evening. Yay, I am uber excited!!
11 July 2011
Seseorang menyoal aku.
Mengapa itu, mengapa ini.
Semua soalan berkisar dunia.
Sungguh aku kejam.
Apa benar dunia telah buat aku alpa.
Atau aku yang lalai dengan dunia.
Itu lagi tepat.
Itu yang benar.
Asyik dengan urusan yang ntah bila mahu selesai.
Dunia itu, dunia ini.
Akhirat yang pasti dipandang sambil lewa.
Hakikat. Aku sudah bertunang.
Sejak aku lahir ke dunia.
Dengan yang bernama Kematian.
Ijab & kabul bukan hak aku tentukan.
Namun yang aku pasti.
Malaikat Izrail itulah Tok Kadi.
Liang lahad itulah pelamin aku.
Ulat & kala jengking itulah tetamu kehormat aku.
Aku tersentak lagi.
Laju menghitung amalan.
Cukupkah jadi bekalan.
Atau semua sudah lesap.
Menghapus dosa-dosa yang menggunung.
Tidak kan mampu amalan aku
memadam bersih dosa-dosa ku.
Aku tersembam. Muka menyembah bumi.
Hanya Kau tempatku berharap Ya Rabb.
Tadi...aku berjalan beriringan dengan dia.
Ditemani alunan irama senada.
Tadi...aku luah yang terbuku di hati.
Syukur dia mengerti ombak gelora yang melanda jiwa.
Tadi...aku ragu adakah mampu dia mendengar.
Terbukti sangkaan ku meleset bila dia tunjuk bukti dia pendengar setia.
Tadi...aku berusaha bina tembok percaya lebih tinggi.
Dan aku iringi doa moga Dia redha dengan semua ini.
Ditemani alunan irama senada.
Tadi...aku luah yang terbuku di hati.
Syukur dia mengerti ombak gelora yang melanda jiwa.
Tadi...aku ragu adakah mampu dia mendengar.
Terbukti sangkaan ku meleset bila dia tunjuk bukti dia pendengar setia.
Tadi...aku berusaha bina tembok percaya lebih tinggi.
Dan aku iringi doa moga Dia redha dengan semua ini.
9 July 2011
Oh God...migraine attack the moment I opened my eyes this morning. Slight change over my sleeping hours has got to be the reason. I woke up 2 hours late than I normally do. Head spinning; nauseated. Tried diverting the unwell feeling by doing the house chores. Failed big time! And I seriously thought a cuppa might help lessen the throbbing pain...wrong idea. It made the head twinge.
So I decided to take a rest. Hindered myself from sitting in front of the lappy for too long. I entertained myself 'with' the Kardashian's family. I wanted to bake the marble cheese cake my preggo SIL craves for. She's been pestering me to make it ever since I uploaded a pic of it in my mukabuku. And I promised her I'll make one soon I came back from my Kolumpur holiday. Weeks has it been yet still no cake baked. Aduyai!
Just to make things more devastating
and melancholy, there's not enough egg left to even make half the cake. Due to the scorching sun I refused the idea to go out to the nearby shop as well.
Will buy the things needed tonight with mother. We're planning to go out to Perdana Park later this evening. Haven't set my foot there since it's opened to the public last year. Boo hoo!
I just wish this pain subside soon. Insya Allah.
7 July 2011
Loving my title...they rhymes oh so perfectly.
Exactly 4 years back; on this very date I was at Ranau together with darling(s); Kizzy , Daia & Pijut. Witnessing the solemnization & wedding reception of our beloved friend; Ernie Khairina binti Mahtar.
After the sanding. Ernie whined about being fed with only jelly. Yes, I still remember leii.
With the ladies few hours before she's officially married to Cekwan. Damn, look at our faces. So young. So pure. Oh squeeze the latter please. I'm just being vain, like I always do. Dayyum I seriously miss the double-chinless moi. Hemo lagi!
How time flies just like a blink of an eye. Ernie is now a proud mommy to a 9months old adorable boy; Aariz Afzal Muhammad bin Azwan Ezzany.
And who say three is too many? In family, word as such never existed.
p/s Ernie; siou saya curi gambar from ur blog kio. Without permission.
Like previous years...my wish remain the same dear. Please know, it is valid until the end of time. May Allah SWT bless ur marriage; and the family. Dikurniakan rezeki yang halal & murah. Beroleh barakah dunia & akhirat.
Her little family will be migrating to the UK after raya this year. As per her sms to me just now, if I can save a fix amount of money every month I can already visit her next year. Insya Allah. Wait for my mission with Pijut to be accomplish first; then only can I think of setting my foot there. For vacation it is. Not migrating. Ahaks.
Love from afar;
your beautiful & gorgeous friend *clearing throat*
6 July 2011
Good bye sorrow phase...sayonara dark tunnel...au revoir ruefulness. I wish we do not have to see each other anymore; well at least not in one of these days perhaps. For I know I won't be where I stand right now if I weren't given the chances to travel through your rough yet rewarding passages. Endless-nya hidup without trials & hurdles. Alhamdulillah for everything Ya Rabb.
Anyhow, it's a sweaty Weds for me today. Renovation work at the office has finished. So I took the free time rearranging everything. Yes, free time bebeh! Too many things loaded into the office during the semester break as to avoid larceny. And yeah, office did resembled a ship wrecked. Messy to the max it suffocate me if I were to spend much time there. During the time of renovation, I spent most of my times outside. Else I'll go to mother's; helping her at the counter during lunch hour. Now that the office looks fresher & neat
and paint-scent no more...I guess I shall be spending my time sitting in there. Speaking of makan gaji buta?? Fine!
Tomorrow the tukang will start painting the walls outside the office. Also the pillars. The original colour has turned dull; less attractive. Thank God; Bungsu managed to choose a truly 'digestible to the eyes' new paint colour. Orange no more the pillars are for maroon is going to be their new coat. And the office too will change it's skin. Green bebeh. It's Nabi Muhammad (pbuh) favourite colour. Also late Aunt's. And considering green represents calmness & tranquility...I have no further objection against his choice this time.
Next week I'll start
acting busy juggling matters at the Indonesian Consul & Immigration Department. It's the work visa(s) renewal thingy 'season' for me! I can already smell dizziness, sweats from afar. And stresses? And mood swings? Phew I hope I will remain sane & cool during the process. Until all are done; perhaps.
Cik Err!! Kalau mau vent out the anger, sila buat dalam
kandang pejabat sendiri. U're allowed to punch & kick whatever things around u as long as it is perform in your office. If u wish to bambu; swear; curse...do so by putting a mirror in front of u. Baru kick tinguk muka sendiri bidak macam naga! Hemo hemo.
4 July 2011
It's been raining cats & dogs here in KK since last week. Alhamdulillah for the pouring Ya Rabb. I no longer whine nor gripe about the super hot weather. At time as such, I could feel as if the heat is penetrating my bones! Biting, cracking them into pieces. Ok enough with the drama already.
Things treated me pretty hard the other day. I don't feel like crawling. Let alone walking. Hence I chose to activate the hibernation mode. Never did I know some friends would notice my silence state. I am truly flattered; I really am. Hibernation occurred when I opted to isolate myself from the outside world. I caged myself at home. Yet virtually keeping in touch with friends. I don't feel like talking to anyone. Just not directly. I rejected phone calls & only responded to text messages. Worst; I stayed idle when 1 of the neighbour knocked my door. *sigh* I know; it was such a horrible attitude. Ugly to be exact. But I just can't be bothered!
Alhamdulillah, as the day rolled by I feel much lighter. And relieved. No more heavy 'bricks' on my shoulders; my chest. Pooof & they're gone. Syukran Allah for listening although there are times I refused to listen to what U said. I came to You only when I'm in despair. Yet never once did You ever leave me alone. Alhamdulillah for this feeling. Praise will always be for You.
I managed to get myself out of the cage yesterday. After so many coaxing & persuasions; Miss Err eventually decided to break the chain that has been tying her neck up. Going out is the key to balance my sanity; I know. Hence the decision to visit Aunty in Putatan. Konon breakfast! Rupanya aktiviti penenangan jiwa. Kdrama pun siap dikasi jadi faktor pencetus tenang. Choiii. As soon as I let myself out, things slowly coordinating themselves back to normal. Came evening, all is back to position. I am sane again! Syukur.
I bet u could certainly guess what u're going to digest by reading this entry. Just look at the attached pictures....yaww!
Truth to be told. I was never; I repeat NEVER a fan of any Transformers thingy. Be it the animated nor the film-line. Let alone the comic series. But I exclusively engaged myself with the toys! Because back then, there's this boy cousin of mine who lived next door...owned this whole collection of Transformers toy-line! Awesomeness to the max right. And yeah, I spent most of my time playing & transforming the toys. From cars into super amazing robots! Instead of playing with dolls & fancy wendy-houses I opted the robots.
And my fond towards the toys slowly disappeared as I grew up. Also when the family moved out. I no longer have a 'brother' who owned massive collection of toys. Robotic to be exact.
When the first installation of Transformers film series were released in 2007...I paid no attention to it. Zero! I don't even have the urge nor the itch to watch it. Not until cousin Ezza forced me to watch it. It happened sometime in 2009; just before the second installation was released. And boy was I wrong about the flick! Uber regret for not watching the first one. But like people say, there's always a first time for everything.
Watched this at home 2 years back. Thanks to Ezza for never giving up on promoting this flick to me. Not everything u dislike will stay in the list forever. Right??
The first sequel of Transformers that I watched at the cinema.
I can't believe I waited for this to be on screen. I never thought I would!
My sayang! Apart from the twins Autobots; Wheeler & Skid.
Dark of the Moon is the finale of the film-line as per Mr. Bay told the media. But we're not sure yet what the production has to say about it. I guess we just have to wait & see whether there's gonna be a sequel or not.
To end this, I would really love to know the designer/brand of Sam's sweetheart; Carly's black heels she wore in the recent Transformers installation. She fell down off high buildings...crashed...thrown against the pillars & whatnot yet the shoes remained intact! The heels? No fracture or damage. One helluva heels it was! Wonder if I could get a pair for myself.
Guna untuk berjuang di cafe!
p/s: Grunge; thanks for the false spoiler! I can't help but to curse u during the movie. I was all ready to see him killed...darn u! Still, the old 'man' death broke my heart. He begged for his life; willing to be captive. But being the evil Shockwave is...he has no mercy to Autobots. Lucky I managed to hold my tears from falling more.